Bitter-Sweet!

Today would be one of those bitter-sweet days....

I miss Grandma so much! I have been brought to tears (probably due to these dang pregnancy hormones) more than once today...as I have been reminded of her. Although I know she is happy and some where far more beautiful than here....I still miss her and I still wish I could talk to her and hug her and share my joy with her. As the end of my pregnancy approaches I wish I could share it with her.

On a happier note....We are scheduled to be induced next Tuesday the 31st of August. If for some reason Joshua decided to make his appearance before than...he will be welcomed with open arms...however, it's unlikely and I am thrilled to finally see the end!

Cole's Sister Mandi and her family will be on Friday Sept. 3rd to baptize their son on Saturday the 4th. I am a little disappointed that I will miss the festivities but thrilled that Cole won't be tied down to the hospital. I may venture out to the farm for dinner one night.

I am finishing up my to-do list and hoping I haven't missed anything. We are officially on baby count down....7 days and counting!!!!

Baby?

No, we haven't had the baby yet!

Amber

36 weeks and 3 days----

ONLY 3 Weeks and 3 days left!!!!

And boy am I ready! I not only feel huge in the belly....but I feel huge every where. This monster is measuring in at 40 weeks. My body is taking a beating daily....he may turn out to be a very sweet baby boy....but I am constantly asking him to STOP!!! It seems as if he wants to come out and beat on his big brother.

I have blood pressure issues when I'm pregnant! Like through the roof numbers....I've been able to have normal blood pressure for most of this pregnancy thanks to my meds. However, Monday....the numbers weren't so pretty. The good news is it doesn't seem to be affecting him, He is growing as he should and moving as he should. Me on the other hand....I am so swollen, I have very little feeling in my right hand...thanks to swelling and pregnancy carpel tunnel....I also lose feeling in my left hand at night. My ankles are well not there anymore...and I can't bend my toes!

The Good NEWS. I am dilated to 1 1/2...which means absolutely nothing other than that my body is showing signs of wanted to do this....I sat, dilated to 2 with Cameron for 4 weeks! However, My Doc is concerned about my BP and if I have not delivered by 39 weeks will induce...or of my BP is too high again will consider inducing. I don't want to hear the horror stories...I was induced with Cameron...Everything went as it should and I had a beautiful baby boy in may arms after 7 hours of labor. Although I hope for a nice easy delivery, I know that things can go wrong NO MATTER WHAT. Yes, there's a higher risk of C-Section with induction....but there's also a high risk of C-Section if my blood pressure is too high! All I care about at the end of the day is that my beautiful son is in my arms...healthy!

So in, hopefully, 2 1/2 weeks we should have our bundle of joy.....

Cowboy Cameron

We took care of the farm while Cole's family was on vacation for a couple of weeks. I will never again farm sit....I've done it several times and it seems as if everything that could go wrong does go wrong! I've had sick goats....goats that have had babies...a cow with mastic...this time around we have had a dog go missing and there is still no sign of him and a truck blow up!

On the brighter side of things, I looked out the window the other day to find my son riding the dog! Yes, the dog was the horse and Cameron was trying to lasso the bull. Here are some pictures of the fun....don't mind that fact that he's wearing a cowboy hat that's way too small for him...oh and he's only in his undies!

A Calf?

When I pictured my life, I never, in a million years would have thought I'd be such a farm girl. I don't necessarily enjoy the farm life but I manage. As you may recall last winter Cole and I milked the Cow. Actually milking started with milking the goats. But when push came to shove last winter, Cole and I milked the cows...picture me...finding out I am expecting....with morning sickness milking a stinky animal! Keep in mind last winter we have terribly cold weather...morning of 8 degrees. We would go to the milk parlor and have to sprinkle salt to melt the ice before the cows could come in. We would have frozen hoses...morning after morning and have to haul water into the parlor to clean with. You get the picture...remember I am pregnant!

Fast forward several months...I am still pregnant and am milking a cow again! Thank goodness for this little business my mother-in-law started. It has literally saved Cole and I more than once! As much as I would rather not be milking a cow at 36+ weeks gestation, I am very grateful for the opportunity to be able to make some money while Cole continues the job search. He does most of the work anyway. My job as of late has been to feed this little guy....

We had extra milk for a couple of weeks and Lorie thought it would be a good ide

a to buy a calf to feed the extra milk to. After talking it over, Cole and I decided we wouldn't mind paying for the calf as we would make a small profit later.

Cole took on the job of bottle training him....

Jack is so sweet. He takes his bottle like a champ now, eats his hay and even drinks a full bucket of water a day! Cameron loves him and loves that he doesn't run from him anymore. I never thought in a million years that I'd own a calf....But I do!

Responsible

My to-do list is slowly but surely getting smaller! There are some days though that I wish I didn't have to be a responsible wife and mommy....I would much rather lay around, sipping yummy ice water and reading a good book. These days though...I a chugging ice water and falling asleep the moment I lay down to read a good book. Oh well, there is a time and a season for everything and reading a great book is not part of this season of my life....It seems only every few months can I actually sit down and read. Today...is not that day....This month is not that month!

As I type I have the washer running...washing baby clothes that need to be folded and put away in about an hour. I also have the dish washer running, a toddler down for his nap, shells to cream puffs baking and a fridge full of fruits and veggies that need to be cut and sliced. I have a gift that needs to be wrapped, gift bags for game winners that need to be put together and a car that needs to be cleaned out. Oh, and Grey's Anatomy re-runs start at 1pm on lifetime....Can't miss that. And that's just my list for this afternoon. Did I mention I am exhausted because I am still not sleeping and I would much rather blow everything off.....and not be responsible.....and take a nap!

Pregnancy Insomnia

Well it's the start of another week and I'm already ready for it to be over! I feel like I have a million and one things to get done and accomplish that if I don't start I will never finish....but I don't have the energy to start!

I have been experiencing pregnancy insomnia. I hate insomnia! I have no problem falling asleep on the couch sometime between 9pm and 10pm. I have no problem snoozing on the couch throughout the day for 30 minutes here or 20 minutes there. But sleep through the night....not happening! You'd think I already have a little one waking up for a mid-night feeding or two. But I don't and still I'm awake at least once but more often twice for minutes if not HOURS every night! I am so tired as it is....I need my full nights sleep for a few more weeks.

The only thing to look forward to this week would be my sisters bridal shower....as her Matron of Honor, I am throwing it....However, it's not going to be much of anything if I don't start sleeping!!!

Also, a quick update...Grandmas funeral service was Friday morning. It was short and sweet and everything she would have wanted. We were able to walk down to the grave site once they were finished laying her casket in and covering it. She is buried with my Grandfather which I find very special. As sad as I am, I count my blessing and know that this too is a blessing! She was in so much pain....and now she's not!

I have to get off the computer and get started on my list....it gets longer by the second!